First of all, I'll apologize for not having a more exciting title, but at least it's descriptive :)
In short - I'm an almost 34-year-old eagerly on the TTC (Trying to conceive) journey.
Like countless other women, I've known I wanted to be a mother since the age of 5. That was the age someone asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up and I told them "I'm gonna be a mommy".
Fast forward 29 years... I've checked off all my other 'must haves' to get closer to being a mommy. Everything I did was to get closer to motherhood. I rushed through college, developed a great career, started a business and finally met a fantastic partner. Now it's baby time!
I say 'partner', because 'boyfriend' seems so trivial, especially at age 34. But essentially, that's what he is at this point, so I'll refer to him as BF from here on. BF and I have been seeing each other for a year and a half, great friends for two. At 46, he's obviously much, much older than me. After much hesitation, I decided that the age difference is not something I wanted to keep me away from getting to know him better, so I continued this relationship and boy am I glad I did!
Planning a life together and working tirelessly towards that goal, we've decided to start the journey to start a family. After years of being careful not to get pregnant, I assumed that it was something that would happen almost instantly.
After 11 months of trying, we're without a BFP.
One of my biggest fears has always been that I may not be able to have a baby. I'm a big time worrier - I worry about everything little thing that could happen in life. I'm even more worried now that there could be something seriously wrong.
After months of counting cycle days, monitoring CM (so not what I ever thought I'd do) and for the last 3 months, using OPKs, I've decided to get a referral to an RE (Reproductive Endocrinologist).
My appointment is in a few days...
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