Guilt and Answers

Nothing much has happened since my last post. I think I've come to terms with our diagnosis, but it's taking my BF a bit longer.

It's not just the MFI that he's coming to terms with, he feels an incredible amount of guilt that we have to go through this. I don't see it like that. This is our challenge as a couple and something that we will both face together. It will take some time and a lot of reassurance, but I think we're on the right path.

I decided that I didn't want to bombard him with doctor's appointments for the next few weeks. He's the type of guy that needs time to process things like this and needs to do things when he's ready. I can wait... we've been waiting this long a few more weeks won't kill me.

In the meantime, I've been doing a tonne of research on IVF with ICSI. The thought of IVF used to scare me in the past and I never thought I'd say this, but I can't wait to get started.

It's a very strange feeling but I actually feel better now than I did the last few months. We now have a game plan, we now have options and a chance. I think I started to lose hope the last few months and I now have regained determination. I'm the type of person that needs to KNOW what's going on. Good news or bad news, I feel much better knowing what the situation is and that something can be done about it.

Answers are comforting to me.

My goal now is to comfort my BF and make sure he understands that we're in this together. I don't know if I can ever help him feel less guilty, but I will work my ass off trying.