We're an infertile couple.
The SA results were bad. Like really bad. Every aspect of the results are low.
At first I was devastated and nervous about breaking the news to my BF since I got the news over the phone. Our RE has requested another sample, but honestly with numbers like that, I'd be shocked to see a major difference. If the numbers are still the same, our only chance of ever conceiving is through IVF and not even plain old IVF, we'll likely need IVF with ICSI.
BF is devastated and I feel horrible seeing him feel like this. I felt bad that I encouraged us to go through this just to rock his world with this news. Neither one of us was expecting this, it was just something routine to rule him out before we get more invasive tests done on me.
It took me a few days, but I started seeing the positive side of things. Understandably, it's taking BF a bit longer to see things like I do. Things could have been worse. Instead of us finding out that his sperm count is low, we could have been told that he has no sperm at all.
I'm just so grateful that at least we still have a chance of conceiving. It may not be the good old fashioned way, but really who cares at the end of the day? If we're blessed with a bundle of joy, I'm more than happy to go through the IVF process. I just want us to be able to have kids, I don't care how they get here.
What scares me about the IVF process is the fact that even with IVF, we can still walk away without a baby. I've read countless stories where couples go through several rounds and none are successful. This is now my biggest fear. Based on the little googling I've done, chances that we'll have a baby is about 30 - 50%, but at least it isn't 0%.
In any case, I'm putting my fear aside for now and I'm choosing to look at the bright side or I'll go crazy. I'm soooooo geared up to start IVF ASAP. I feel like we're a step closer and I'm excited about that.
I would however like to say - SCREW YOU INFERTILITY! YOU SUCK!
Thanks for your post on my blog. I wanted to let you know that our problem was also MFI...and you don't mention what your numbers were, but ours were pretty devastatingly low too. It seems like we were in exactly the same boat as you...I'm in my mid-30's, tests all clear for me, but major MFI problems. IVF with ICSI really does work and at least at my clinic, success rates were higher for MFI than for problems on the female side (maybe because all you need on the male side are a few good sperm, where on the female side, there are so many factors that need to line up correctly). Don't give up hope!
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for your comforting comment! After doing some research, I realized that although the count was bad (4 million), it could have been worse. I think it is sufficient for IVF w/ICSI and I hope our story turns into a success.
DeleteThank you again!