Monday, 27 February 2012
Sunday, 26 February 2012
Thanks for the advice!
I hate being given advice about how to get pregnant from someone who got pregnant on the first month of attempting.
Although I haven't shared the fact that we're TTC, I had a friend, who is currently 6 months pregnant, tell me that I'm getting older now and if I want to have kids, I should start trying.
Thanks for that bit of advice!
She went into expert advice about getting pregnant. The sad part is that although she may know so much more about actually being pregnant, I'm far more of an expert about attempting to 'get pregnant' than her. She had no idea when she was ovulating. She got off the pill and within a month, she was pregnant.
I felt like slapping her, but slapping a pregnant woman isn't acceptable so I just smiled and nodded.
We're awaiting my BF's SA results this week. To say that we're nervous doesn't even scratch the surface.
Although I haven't shared the fact that we're TTC, I had a friend, who is currently 6 months pregnant, tell me that I'm getting older now and if I want to have kids, I should start trying.
Thanks for that bit of advice!
She went into expert advice about getting pregnant. The sad part is that although she may know so much more about actually being pregnant, I'm far more of an expert about attempting to 'get pregnant' than her. She had no idea when she was ovulating. She got off the pill and within a month, she was pregnant.
I felt like slapping her, but slapping a pregnant woman isn't acceptable so I just smiled and nodded.
We're awaiting my BF's SA results this week. To say that we're nervous doesn't even scratch the surface.
Friday, 24 February 2012
Testing, testing and more testing
I feel like I haven't blogged in a while. It's been a few weeks.
The truth is that I really haven't had anything to blog about recently. Every month is pretty much the same and I hate sounding like Debbie Downer constantly.
This month I tried the 'low expectations' route to TTC. I went back to OPKs because I wanted to know exactly when I ovulated so that I know when to expect AF since it's always 14 days after ovulation for me. I wasn't excited the entire two week wait. I barely even noticed the dates, they just flew by since I wasn't allowing myself to even think about them.
I almost made it without getting excited at all. But when the day AF was due went by without any sighting of her, I got excited. Against my better judgement, I really thought that maybe this was the month (my positivity is cute).
AF made her appearance first thing the very next day.
I'm disappointed, but not anywhere as upset as I had been in the past. I've accepted that it seems unlikely that we'll be able to get pregnant the old fashioned way or at least until we discover what exactly is wrong. I know in my heart that something is wrong.
My BF has provided a semen sample for an analysis and we're waiting for the results. I know he's nervous about the results and honestly, I don't know any man who's happy to do it, but it handled it well and I'm really happy about that. We've been walking on eggshells since. We're both so very nervous about the results.
If the results are good, the next step is for me to have an exploratory laparoscopy to see if there are any other underlying issues like endometriosis that can't be diagnosed any other way.
I anticipate the next month to be a tough one for us and I'm attempting to gear up (if that's even possible) for whatever news we'll get from the SA or my surgery.
The truth is that I really haven't had anything to blog about recently. Every month is pretty much the same and I hate sounding like Debbie Downer constantly.
This month I tried the 'low expectations' route to TTC. I went back to OPKs because I wanted to know exactly when I ovulated so that I know when to expect AF since it's always 14 days after ovulation for me. I wasn't excited the entire two week wait. I barely even noticed the dates, they just flew by since I wasn't allowing myself to even think about them.
I almost made it without getting excited at all. But when the day AF was due went by without any sighting of her, I got excited. Against my better judgement, I really thought that maybe this was the month (my positivity is cute).
AF made her appearance first thing the very next day.
I'm disappointed, but not anywhere as upset as I had been in the past. I've accepted that it seems unlikely that we'll be able to get pregnant the old fashioned way or at least until we discover what exactly is wrong. I know in my heart that something is wrong.
My BF has provided a semen sample for an analysis and we're waiting for the results. I know he's nervous about the results and honestly, I don't know any man who's happy to do it, but it handled it well and I'm really happy about that. We've been walking on eggshells since. We're both so very nervous about the results.
If the results are good, the next step is for me to have an exploratory laparoscopy to see if there are any other underlying issues like endometriosis that can't be diagnosed any other way.
I anticipate the next month to be a tough one for us and I'm attempting to gear up (if that's even possible) for whatever news we'll get from the SA or my surgery.
Monday, 6 February 2012
Positve OPK, but feeling so sad
After I caved and got my BFN last cycle, AF made her appearance the very next day.
I should have used OPKs for my own sanity last cycle. I would have known that I had simply ovulated a bit later than normal, which would have helped me not get my hopes up. Instead, I really thought that there was a chance I was pregnant and was crushed to find out I wasn't.
That made month #14 of TTC and not getting pregnant.
I bought OPKs this cycle. I really want to know when I'm ovulating so that I can avoid getting my hopes up again if AF comes a bit later than I anticipate. I got a negative yesterday at cycle day 11 and a positive today at cycle day 12.
We've been pretty good with out 'trying' schedule and have been trying every other day since cycle day 8. I hope we can keep it up for another few days. I think I'll either ovulate tomorrow or the day after.
I'm bummed though. I know I should be excited that I got a positive OPK and we've scheduled out attempts so well, but a part of me is so incredibly sad because we've done that in the past and the cycle always ends with AF.
My BF and I have decided that if this cycle ends with a BFN, he will get a semen analysis. I'm scared of the results.
I know I should be more positive but I feel in my heart that this will be month #15 of AF making an appearance and just can't bear to get my hopes up again.
I'm so tired of getting my hopes crushed month after month and even more terrified when I think about what the semen analysis results could bring into our struggle to have a baby.
I should have used OPKs for my own sanity last cycle. I would have known that I had simply ovulated a bit later than normal, which would have helped me not get my hopes up. Instead, I really thought that there was a chance I was pregnant and was crushed to find out I wasn't.
That made month #14 of TTC and not getting pregnant.
I bought OPKs this cycle. I really want to know when I'm ovulating so that I can avoid getting my hopes up again if AF comes a bit later than I anticipate. I got a negative yesterday at cycle day 11 and a positive today at cycle day 12.
We've been pretty good with out 'trying' schedule and have been trying every other day since cycle day 8. I hope we can keep it up for another few days. I think I'll either ovulate tomorrow or the day after.
I'm bummed though. I know I should be excited that I got a positive OPK and we've scheduled out attempts so well, but a part of me is so incredibly sad because we've done that in the past and the cycle always ends with AF.
My BF and I have decided that if this cycle ends with a BFN, he will get a semen analysis. I'm scared of the results.
I know I should be more positive but I feel in my heart that this will be month #15 of AF making an appearance and just can't bear to get my hopes up again.
I'm so tired of getting my hopes crushed month after month and even more terrified when I think about what the semen analysis results could bring into our struggle to have a baby.
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